Alone

 

I feel empty like a hollow log, but I am sinking like a ship. Trying to stay afloat while I am being pulled down to the deep.

 
My heart is broken, the pain so unbearable that I can barely speak. What is it about this love I cannot replace?

I replay the moments, the talks, the fights, what didn’t I hear or acknowledge that you said telling me things aren’t right?

How did we get here this place so far from the start? When did you tell me we were falling apart?

I am restless and lost, abandoned and scared. Surrounded by faces, but none of them you. Lost in a crowd and wandering through.

When we are together, it’s not really you just a constant reminder of a past I once knew.

Friendship is hard, it eats at my soul, yet a life without you is harder to unfold.

Everyone thinks I am strong, but I feel so weak. Struggling to grow, while inside I break

Life has changed, and I hate that it has, its left me afraid of the future ahead, one without you and alone instead.

Love is worth fighting for or so I’ve been told, can you really fight in a ring when you’re all alone?

I don’t know how to let go, but I have dreamed of the day where thinking of you doesn’t happen every second of everyday.  

All of this happened and I didn’t come out unscathed, but one thing is certain something must change.

I held onto hope that you would come back, like the sun as it rises out from the dark.

As time passes by, that hope fades away, like a wave crashing on the shore and then descending to the sea. In the end it is just me.

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